Secret Vespers » confessions http://secretvespers.com by Patrick Edwards-Daugherty Thu, 02 Feb 2012 16:41:43 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 Someone Else http://secretvespers.com/2011/12/07/someone-else/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/12/07/someone-else/#comments Wed, 07 Dec 2011 18:50:55 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1826 we are other people, that's where this whole nausea begins

Was it your liberation or your annihilation?]]> we are other people, that's where this whole nausea begins

Was it your liberation or your annihilation?

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/12/07/someone-else/feed/ 2 The Haze http://secretvespers.com/2011/11/02/the-haze/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/11/02/the-haze/#comments Wed, 02 Nov 2011 22:48:39 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1814 infatuation and wine are a head-spinning mix, if I am remembering it right

Infatuation and wine are a fabulous mix, if my memory serves me.]]> infatuation and wine are a head-spinning mix, if I am remembering it right

Infatuation and wine are a fabulous mix, if my memory serves me.

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/11/02/the-haze/feed/ 1 poems were words made http://secretvespers.com/2011/08/20/poems-were-words-made/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/08/20/poems-were-words-made/#comments Sat, 20 Aug 2011 22:25:31 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1787 I was taught that poems were words made to remember. So I went into a café and wrote down the most important things I could think of. I wrote pages and pages of the stuff. And I felt like a genius until I showed it to my friends. And that’s how I proved that my most cherished ideas were asinine, my deepest feelings were boring, and my ways with language were contrived, even embarrassing. So much for writing.

I want to live in the places of our mind. I want a free ride on the things that we aspire to. Haven’t I felt empathy for the unfortunate, predicted the events of the planet, conceived of great inventions and works of art that I would accomplish, if only I had the time? I’ve seen us, too, in my mind. We are in perpetual amazement with each other, honest without the slightest loss of mystery, somehow at the top of our arcs, with all the time to dazzle the world, and all the time to idle like a picnic with each other.

What is this awful place where we actually live, this city named for a better one, one that is a legend, and is mostly a myth? Are we, collectively, so dull that we cannot even name a river? Maybe you and I could never be together, we would try to escape but not quite manage, we would go to the end of the world, and still we’d be there, mechanical in our language, and like the actuaries or adjusters of romance, systematically disproving the best that we’d imagined, systematically hedging against the worst.

When I was a child, I hoped that later, ten or twenty years later, I would not know the difference between the things I had experienced, the things I had dreamed, and the things I had imagined.

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/08/20/poems-were-words-made/feed/ 6 Momentary http://secretvespers.com/2011/08/01/momentary/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/08/01/momentary/#comments Mon, 01 Aug 2011 23:31:17 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1779 and it casts a long shadow

Have you ever felt in the same moment lots of hope and lots of hopelessness?]]> and it casts a long shadow

Have you ever felt in the same moment lots of hope and lots of hopelessness?

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/08/01/momentary/feed/ 4 Invisible http://secretvespers.com/2011/07/18/invisible/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/07/18/invisible/#comments Mon, 18 Jul 2011 20:21:09 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1777 your friends are there, but are you ready for them?

What is the good advice you are afraid to be told?]]> your friends are there, but are you ready for them?

What is the good advice you are afraid to be told?

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/07/18/invisible/feed/ 7 Problems http://secretvespers.com/2011/05/20/problems/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/05/20/problems/#comments Sat, 21 May 2011 02:03:48 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1769 to keep so many takes a lot of love (of problems)

It’s good to keep problems in boxes—buried somewhere you forget.]]> to keep so many takes a lot of love (of problems)

It’s good to keep problems in boxes—buried somewhere you forget.

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/05/20/problems/feed/ 3 Sexy http://secretvespers.com/2011/02/22/sexy/ http://secretvespers.com/2011/02/22/sexy/#comments Tue, 22 Feb 2011 05:00:00 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1730 now that everybody knows, I really see your faults

Has the sex usually been better when it was still secret and wrong?]]> now that everybody knows, I really see your faults

Has the sex usually been better when it was still secret and wrong?

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2011/02/22/sexy/feed/ 8 Unlatching http://secretvespers.com/2010/05/21/unlatching/ http://secretvespers.com/2010/05/21/unlatching/#comments Fri, 21 May 2010 05:00:00 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1430 she trusts the men completely and herself not at all

Have you ever fallen out of love? Did it come suddenly, inexplicably, or did it sneak up on you? Were you out of love for a long time before even realizing?]]> she trusts the men completely and herself not at all

Have you ever fallen out of love? Did it come suddenly, inexplicably, or did it sneak up on you? Were you out of love for a long time before even realizing?

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2010/05/21/unlatching/feed/ 12 Secrets http://secretvespers.com/2010/03/30/secrets/ http://secretvespers.com/2010/03/30/secrets/#comments Tue, 30 Mar 2010 05:00:00 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1415 you tell the truth only when you least expect to

Have you ever wondered why a person might wrap her body around with so many stories and excuses and mythologies, when all the fears and secrets she has are perfectly ordinary, perfectly visible anyway?]]> you tell the truth only when you least expect to

Have you ever wondered why a person might wrap her body around with so many stories and excuses and mythologies, when all the fears and secrets she has are perfectly ordinary, perfectly visible anyway?

]]> http://secretvespers.com/2010/03/30/secrets/feed/ 19 Safe Regrets http://secretvespers.com/2010/03/06/safe-decisions/ http://secretvespers.com/2010/03/06/safe-decisions/#comments Sat, 06 Mar 2010 05:00:00 +0000 Somerled http://secretvespers.com/?p=1410 the biggest threat to your plan is your backup plan

Speaking of doing things that are unsafe, I have been working a lot with paper and with taking pictures of things I draw on paper, and with letting the paper show on the screen. Oh, and there was that thing with the alligator. Are there any life risks you are wavering about? Have there been?]]> the biggest threat to your plan is your backup plan

Speaking of doing things that are unsafe, I have been working a lot with paper and with taking pictures of things I draw on paper, and with letting the paper show on the screen. Oh, and there was that thing with the alligator.

Are there any life risks you are wavering about? Have there been?

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