Secret Vespers

“What do your dangling projects mean to you?”

oh, they’re my unfinished businesses, my fuel… little weird thoughts and ideas that keep my mind going when i’m bored.

when i was living in copenhagen, i read in an art/show one time: “replace the fear of the unknown with curiosity.”
and i realised it was my way of living life. and so it is.

What do your dangling projects mean to you?

Different things.

Important things.

…but the half-projects will always be seen as half-projects by those outside looking in.

…unless they really know me, what drives me, what makes me tick.

i leave projects i initially believe in when later i find out that the counterparts have no plans of honoring agreements.

i leave projects i have high hopes for when i realize later that glitches that prove detrimental to others are being overlooked with full awareness and consent.

If my priority meter is no longer in synergy with the project’s priority gauge how can I even drive it to where i believe it should go when I am the assigned driver and the car has a mind of its own and it wants to go somewhere else? At times like this, I have to recognize, maybe a different driver would fit better in the car’s seat.

I leave projects when the project board wants me to do their dirty tricks for them while the actual project investor has no idea whatsoever of the snakes inside his treshold (this often happens). I beg off when this happens.

I do not continue projects when I have such high respect for the person I am gonna do it with and I know there are areas of my life that have yet to be addressed if I wanna be in my best form when I set the collaboration in full motion.

There are but a few people who amaze me and with these people, i don’t wanna offer a half-baked me so I never would wanna commit if i am never even sure whether i can see the commitment thru.

If I can see that the deal’s a bit tipped in my favor, I don’t wanna do it because I want people whom I hold in high esteem to know that I am doing projects with them not because it is advantageous for me but because I really believe in them. Any project with people such as these isn’t but an ordinary practical endeavor for me – it’s a learning ground, an important phase in my life’s journey.

I want my counterparts to see it in that light, too. So with people I have high repect for, I collaborate only when I know we’re on equal footing, or I am putting in more than what’s expected. I don’t wanna shortchange them. I don’t wanna expose them to unnecessary setbacks.

I see my contribution to the project as a gift (even if they do not know it). It’s rare when i find people I really admire and for me it’s a blessing to be given a chance to work with them, to gain their trust – so if that trust is given at a time when I am not sure yet whether extraneous circumstances may adversely affect our collaboration thru me (or thru my open doors)- i back out. I don’t wanna ruin their trust. I don’t wanna cause them any hassle.

Might as well forego the chance to work with them for the moment and hope that later I will be in a position to continue the project, or another one… as long as it’s with them.

Most of the times, it’s the people, the core values, the capacity, the vision, and the dreams I look at.

The projects? There won’t be a dearth of the concepts and the capacity to implement if you’re with people who view projects the same way you do.

It’s the people, the people you do it with, who count.

The dangling projects?

They will all look the same on the outside. Uncontinued projects. (Already uncontinued or YET uncontinued? My intentions? Only I know.)

The rationale behind not continuing them?

Yet?

Only I, and the people who understand what drives me, know.

“Is it the fear of being unsuccessful
or just having other plans to proceed with?
Either way, some things will never be completed.”

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