October 13th, 2008
Highest Bounce
How do you feel about your first time in love? Is the first high always the highest?
Transcriptorial: I might never bounce as high again, / but some loves stay unsurpassed.
How do you feel about your first time in love? Is the first high always the highest?
Em, it could’ve bounced higher,,,if it had bounced at all.
Brings new meaning to the term “rebound.”
It baffles me how something can be so wrong when put on paper, but feel so right.
My first time in love was a very very painful experience, but I don’t wish to have it undone because all experiences are good.
It was a learning process. I learn a little more with each love lost, but the first was the largest blow to my psyche and my comprehension of the world. I don’t feel as betrayed or as lied to anymore, since I have such low expectations of love. I think everyone holds love up to way too high of a standard and then they are crushed when the “truth” underneath their feet gives way.
Torn, then gutted. And I managed to survive both times. Life is beautiful.
First time of being in love…i feel like being psycho killer than a lover.
I so know what you mean.
my first time i was in love…. i feel like that ill never fall out of love with that person… even though ive been with other people… and have been in love since… my first was definitely my highest bounce…
He took advantage of my trusting and loving nature and then on top of that was cruel about it later.
I’m still recovering.
I completely empathize.
Ugh, men.
I still have it. Thank goodness.
It’s terrifying knowing that someone has so much power over me; he could break me so easily.
I thought I was in love, but it was more infatuation and obsession than anything else. We ended up hurting each other a lot. But I wouldn’t be the person I am today had I not experienced that kind of heartbreak.
So true…often what we thought was love, wasn’t really. In retrospect is the only way to see this. Sometimes people use the word “love” when they mean “mutual devouring.”
I always love the person I think they are. Some times they are, sometimes they aren’t. But I have finally learned not to gauge my own value as a person on someone else’s scale.
‘A Golden Warrior speaks to me,
Denying my reality.
Lose my body, lose my mind,
I blow like wind, I flow like wine…
Down a corridir of flame,
Will I fly so high again?
Is there something wrong with me?
I cannot hear, I cannot see…’
(Michael Moorcock)
I think I’m lucky because my first love dwindled over time. It was passionate and exhilirating, but over heartbreak and years together and apart, I can think of him now as a person and not an ideal, and I think I’ve grown because of that.
First love: Madness wrapped in discovery, ultimately ending in betrayal. But that’s what it’s supposed to be I think. We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up, and that old chestnut was never truer than we we speak of first loves.
How do you feel about your first time in love?
Amazing.
Life-changing.
But I so wanna surpass that emotional roller-coaster.
Bliss.
Gentleness.
Comfort.
Security.
Firm conviction.
… a strong shoulder to lean on.
I’d opt for this anytime.
Now with the benefit of hindsight.
Oh that welcome quietude,
oh these sweet platitudes…
The things I had been, I totally missed
… and found again.
because of you.
Oh, i love the bliss and quiet when I am with you
YES.
The peace of freedom to just be together, without having to make a lot of fuss.
Acceptance and accepting.
“Security” is not an ugly word.