I want to meet you without ever planning
I want to meet you without ever planning to meet, sit next to you on the subway and get off at the wrong stop. We’ll change our clothes, buy five dollar outfits and chase cats through alleys, steal the cameras of tourists to take pictures of graffiti, follow them back to their hotels to give the items back. We’ll find a protest and teach an anarchist to sing, set the unwanted dogs at the SPCA free. We’ll ride glass elevators in the financial district and give crayon drawings to vice presidents. We’ll share pies with hipsters and run up stairs until we puke, shower in cold water, in our clothes, and kiss to keep our lips warm. We’ll do the single most honest thing at work to get us fired, live by selling whispers in a gallery. We’ll not know each other’s name for at least a year, and never use words between sunset and sunrise.
beautiful.
:)
sad.
love.
I want to meet you as well.
It’s nice to know you’re out there.
is he really out there? i’ve lost faith.
He is out there.. sometimes he’s.. erm.. stuck in traffick. But he tries.. he does.
i dont believe it, joseph.
You can only expect from a Man or Woman what you have done yourself. You’ll only find a Man or Woman as good of yourself, so don’t look for perfection if you yourself aint perfect.
Don’t get lost in fantasies, because they’re not real. Some-one is out there, they’re just not who you think they are.
I deny your idea Tyler.
The world has shown me elsewise. I suppose that idea is what it has shown you so you believe it to be that.
Then again, maybe I just like to fight. Purposely looking for and instigating fights merely taking the opposite side to see who has the stronger will to win.
I’m not saying you won’t find someone who is better in places your worse, but you won’t have some Edward Cullen sweeping you off your feet if your a drug addict(get what I’m saying?). The person you’ll find won’t have the same flaws you do, but they’ll have a similar amount.
It kind of saddens me.
I really want that.
That’s me. Could be you too if only you stopped trying so hard.
So Sad. So Beautiful. So Sad and So Beautiful.
Reminds us of when we were going across the sand and finally got to Bethleham and all the motels were full and we had to stay in a garage. And Mary being preggers and all. ( It wasn’t mine, Honest!} But she was such a nice kid I just had to marry her. She wouldn’t say who’s it was, but just smiled when she looked at Hesus… but She insisted we pronounce the J as a JEW, so it was Jesus.
Anyway, he’s now 28 and still living at home so I’m going to have to get some motavation into the kid and kick his butt out into the real world. But we do like the cheap wine.
- Joseph
romance: vomit covered crayon drawings… got it.
you fill me up with vomit and ask me for a piece of gum?
bitter and dumb, you’re my sugar plum. :)
I want to meet you by chance in that park where we used to search for promised elephants, drinking lemonade with mint and yelling nonsense to the wind. We will steal a bike each to race throught the boulevard waiting for the sun to set… and forming circles on the empty streets I will sing old songs to make you smile. We will arrive to an apartment with wooden floors and eat bread with creamcheese and white wine and beer and red wine and mary jane, planning the week-end in an auction or in a summer house or swimming by the canal. I want to meet you soon and pretend that there’s no distance. I don’t want to have to say the things I feel I have to say, I just want it the way it was.
Beautiful.
Beautiful. You are amazing.
I want to meet you in that park. The one where we spent our day in the rain. I will sing the songs that remind me of you. I will show you how much I care. We’ll walk around. Only you’ll know that I love you, and I’ll know too. We’ll sit up on a bench and huddle together to stay warm. All the while talking. We’ll walk to your house. Your room smells just like I remember, I walk softly on the soft carpet. Watch movie after movie. Make brownies that don’t turn out terrible. I’ll make you a huge dinner and insist that I’m not hungry. We’ll make plans to go to an amusement park. We’ll walk to the park and swing til it’s dark. Lay on the ground and watch the stars. Finally return to that house. Fall asleep in your arms. Wake up with you whispering “I love you” into my ear. I want to meet you and pretend none of the hurt you caused upon me happened, that you still care about me. I want to meet you and not need to say the things I should, I just want everything back how it was.
i want everything the way it was too. i don think that can ever happen, ray.
I have my hopes, though they are crushed daily.
It feels like I have to start over 100%.
To Ray and Mona.. your comments truely fight my character. I really cannot accept your disbeliefe. Just as your doubt of this poem is strongly werded I would hope my own spirit would be as powerful to help you beliefe the future that I believe in. I’ve been thinking about what you’ve said Mona, for days. and I don’t know what it is but.. all I do is fight. And maybe it’s that you have been hurt in ways that broke you unlike some of these other souls. Some people recover or are unharmed by life. Maybe it’s the idea of this deity force that makes this poem a reality. Do you doubt the idea of people like this existing? Are you hurt by something personal? I don’t know. But I do believe in, I would hope, what is said by this poem most likely because I want to meet that person. Maybe i am this person. Maybe I know this person. I don’t know if you believe in this future.. but that’s not going to stop me. (btw my ideas can’t all connect sometimes.. sorry)
Thank you for your response, Joseph. It’s not so much that i’ve been hurt by others, as betrayed by my own self doubt. I think i sabotage myself, by overthinking, by not being open to what’s there. I don’t believe in a deity force. I beleive that we are our own future. And therefore, there is no one to blame but ourselves, when things don’t work out.
hahaha you say we have to take responsibility. Except I say that goes for the good too. Funny. Well, cool.. understanding where people come from is how we can understand how eachother feels.
you are exactly right. Taking credit, and taking responsibility. Too often, its much easier to take the credit, rather than the responsibility.
It’s the same thing with myself. I over think everything. I worry about every single tiny detail. And somehow I still mess things up. It’s starting to become hard for me to believe there are people like what I described in the world anymore like that. Even the person I’m describing has changed greatly.
I want to get off the bus one day and see you standing there, not expecting me. I want to float to your unit on the high of love and lust and eat cookie dough and drink coke in bed. I want you to save me again and not even mean to.
This I also want.
Real love:
I want to meet you when you get off that bus. I know your day is long watching Natalie all day, but maybe I can take her for a bit while you take a nap? We’ll go to the library. When we get back I’ll cook something, maybe pasta?
By the way, sorry my feet smell. I had to wear my boots all day because one of my sneakers fell out of my backpack on the walk to school this morning.
If you’re up by the time we get back, lets watch that “Babar” DVD I picked up last week. It’s due tomorrow anyway.
THANK YOU.
I am in love with this poem. Everyday.
This poem is alright. What it represents. The type of person you ideally want to be with, I can identify with that. I think the problem you have is not just that you haven’t found that person, but that your focus is on your disappointment.
What if more people decided to be that person, to take the focus off their disappointments and become some one who cares deeply for others. Those people would find their lives immensely more fulfilling and would in turn make life better in small ways and big ways for those around them. And then people would be drawn to them the same way people are drawn to the idealized person in this poem. And it would be a lot easier for you to find love like that.
Rather than sit in your real hurts and pain and insecurities and frustrations over and over again every single day, choose to deal with the pain, heal, and move forward and be the type of person you want to be. Live the life you always dreamed, and be the type of person you like to relate with day in and day out.
And be consistent; be that person whether it is easy or it is with difficult people.
Also note that what you look for you will find. If you are looking for the flaws they will always be there, but if you look for the treasure in people then you must often look more carefully and tread more softly, but if you look until you see, then you will find it.
Be honest, but kind to everyone; you never know who the person in your path will become to you in the future.
amen.
This is why I love Chicago and never intend to leave.